The Quest

As life settles back into a fairly normal routine again of school for the kids and research ventures for me, the feeling of serenity has slipped back into my heart. Sometimes the things we most want are the very things that can seem the most daunting and I experienced that in a wholly new degree of late. The level of which I experienced the doubts that came to me can possibly be explained by the level of which these accomplishments I am working to attain exist. In short, the higher the expectations and goals, the higher the intensity of doubts and fear.

I remain proud of myself for keeping on in the forward direction, even though there have been times I have wated to pack it all up and call it quits. I know the detriment of halting an unfinished task based on fear of the outcome. And I have always tried to live a life without regrets.

While my daughter was away at a slumber party, my son and I watched the Lord of the Rings trilogy (after her slumber party turned into a whole weekend affair) and I was brought to tears more than once over the wise words of those on that remarkable quest. Granted, I am not carrying a ring that has the undead following me to take it and return it to their evil sorcerer master, having to traverse through treacherous terrain while being hunted by any number of creatures, with the fate of the all that is good in the world resting in my hands. But I think that no matter how big or small your task is, no matter who you are or what you have gone through, you can exponentially benefit from hearing encouraging words and being reminded that there is always hope, no matter how small, of success on any endeavor you put your heart into.

And so I must remind myself, my heart is in this quest. And there is a hope of success. And whether I am daunted or not, I will continue moving forward in it, taking small steps when I am too fearful to take any at all, and leaping over vast valleys and flying over tops of unbelievably high walls when I feel the strength of courage burning deep in my soul, carrying me along. Thank you for my strength.
cheers